In October 2011,
Valerio, (Chief Freddy), an Incan Preist-Shaman, came to PA and offered 3 days of ceremony to
help me heal. We had over 15 people in support and attendance. It was
beautiful and memorable for everyone involved.Seated around a "Peyote campfire" in a cozy tee pee, we sang all night, as he pulled the cancer spirit right out of my body, amazing! We shared visions of wellness as we gathered in sweat lodge each morning at sunrise.
I was given many messages during this time, one of my favorites was "you are the queen bee of your own hive", meaning I now make my own choices, am the master of my self, and take full responsibility for my life. My least favorite was "in March, Devastation will hit". I received no further information at that time.
Strict in my alkaline diet, and with the help of Eagle medicine, my tumor began shrinking over the next few months.
What's Eagle medicine? More on that later.
I spoke with Dr Jonathan Treasure, cancer specialist in Oregon www.mederifoundation.org/ who recommended multiple herbs and vitamins to begin boosting my immune system. I felt great, but upon carrying a large suitcase everywhere with me and taking capsules, liquids or powders every 2 hours on an empty or full stomach, the daily process was too complicated to continue.
The words rang in my head "in March, devastation will hit". I prayed to avoid this, but prior and subsequent relationships fell apart, my household was put into storage, I moved in with my parents, intense colitis landed me in the hospital for a week, my daughters boyfriend died, stress was high. Overwhelmed, the cancer went from receding, to stage four, growing with vengeance.
Summer 2012 I began ozone treatments under the care of Dr. Bill Akpinar in Queens NY.
My treatments included:
Acupuncture, hyperbarics chamber, vitamin C and B shots, Healers, amethyst crystal bed, positive/negative polarity bed, and more.
The nurses gave me the dose of TLC I'd been lacking for years, helping me restore my soul.
These boosted my immune system, I felt excellent in my body and the vitality of my health and cells went up to 97%, (SCIO test). However, office visits were taking 11 - 13 hours a day with travel, and combined with various types of local therapy, I was spending 50 - 60 hrs weekly in treatment. With hurricane Sandy, travel was almost impossible and post-phoned for weeks.
By the time I returned to the Queens clinic, the cancer had spread again. One of the doctors said the cancer had spread so much, it was like trying to stop a train going 100 mph. He recommended that I get a major double masectomy including lymph glands, resume treatments to kill the rest of the cancer cells missed through surgery, then in a year complete the process with re-constructive surgery. Aside from the fact that it would have been strenuous to continue traveling 2-3 times weekly, this plan concerned me for many reasons including:
1) Surgery would open up my body for the cancer to spread like crazy, through the bloodstream.
2) After surgery, it's just matter of time till cancer spreads through my body again, and I'm right back where we started.
3) post-surgery, my body would be weak from recovering, and unable to use all my resources to fight the cancer.
4) Traveling back and forth to N.Y. would be even more difficult in a weakened state after surgery.
No win situation.
Another Reason I haven't considered surgery is our family history:
My 2 great aunts and 2 aunts died from breast cancer, great grand father (liver cancer), grand father (lymph cancer), and brother (brain cancer).
All but 1 used Western medicine and chemotherapy treatment.
Finally, I found Dr. Freedenfeld 1 hour away in Stockton NJ, who offers non-traditional treatments.
Jan 2013 he recommended Chest, abdomen and pelvis scans, which showed tumors in the center of my chest, reflecting tumors riddled in my liver and body from pelvis up. The type of inflammatory breast cancer I have is the most aggressive, rapidly spreading and fast growing. (Reminds me of my youngest brother Brian, who died from brain cancer within a year of extensive surgery, at the age of 33).
According to the doctors, the strand of cancer I have is not normally affected by chemotherapy or hormonal treatments.
Surgery is not an option, as not much would be left of my body!
Long story short, there's nothing modern medicine can offer to help me, nor mankind.
On the bright side, I've
had one of the most beautiful years possible.
I began recording songs I've written and sang Blues for the first time!
I spent close time with my beautiful daughter Tashina, created colorful memories made with my mother and father, enjoyed a family cruise to the Bahamas where we danced, sang, ate and had the time of our life! fabulous experiences!!
This adventure was followed by a D.A.R. cruise a few months later with Gerri Falk, president of our local chapter. To my surprise, this island cruise had a "singles" group of people from all over America. Being single, I joined in on a week of celebration, what fun! Strangely enough, no symptoms flared during these fabulous experiences!!
We brought Chief Freddy out again, to guide us in an ayawaska ceremony January 2013. He suggested I go to the Amazon jungle to work with a shaman (Sha-woman, Elisa) in the Shipibo Indian tribe.
So off I go next week, by myself, for a month!A little note of hope: I spoke with Melissa Stratton www.heavenlymessagesbymelissa.com in the Fall of 2012. She said "Tani, you have the Lazarus chart". What's that Melissa? "Lazarus was raised from the dead. You're going to have a second chance at life!
I take with me, no expectations. I go there to "die", and allow myself to be re-born. My sense is that it will help re-structure my foundation. From there I can re-build the blueprints of my life. The responsibility of healing lies within ME, but it is the combined FORCE of everyone, that creates the space for it to take place.
