Friday, May 14, 2010

Recovering

The best way to heal, my friend Adrienne said, is not from doctors, the foods you eat or amount of exercise, but from the warmth and love that comes from beloveds being there and doing "it" with you! "It's not the casserole, it's the company" says Dana Guerra.  People say I look better than expected, and I attribute it to my full schedule morning till night with dear friends helping about the house, massaging my stiff back and shoulders, bringing food and dining with me.  I am sore and swollen but my spirits are held high by laughter, care, sweet conversation and a bright outlook everyday. 
My achy body led me to a quick visit with doctor today, who told me "stay inside that surgical bra 24-7, and keep moving that arm" -ouch!   Still uncomfortable, I went for a short walk and did a little Pilate's yoga.  Felt good. 
Immediately after surgery, Dr. Desai told my family that I would require chemotherapy and radiation, starting with chemotherapy first.  Six days later his nurse, Holly, happily told me that further lab results showed absolutely no cancer in the lymph glands (which is the first place cancer begins to metastasize ), or any where surrounding the lump!
Tomorrow I Have an appointment with Dr. Di Martino at the Woodlands clinic.  My pathological report has been forwarded to him, so I'm interested in the protocol he will recommend.  Some of you have begun to pool money together for me, as herbal support is very costly. Thank you immensely!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Surgery results

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

I was in extremely good hands for an excellent surgery and came through with flying colors! I was pleasantly surprised at not only how competent everyone was, but how kind and caring they were as well.  Dr. Desai had previously marked my body where he was going to make the incision. In consideration of the outfits I wear on stage when singing, he drew the line to the outside of, but close to the lump, balancing surgery efficiency. My experience: 

  • The pre-surgery assistants were kind and helpful.  They made everything pleasant.

  • My mother Shirley and daughter Tashina were with me until a few minutes before surgery.  Tashina left to get ready for her Prom!  Mom met my brother Dar and father Samir for lunch at a nice restaurant.  It put my heart at ease to know everyone was doing something nice.

  • I had a few minutes to myself and took the time to look around the room with my intuitive eye.  I saw the spirit of everyone who had said "I can't be there with you physically, but I'll be there with you in spirit", my spirit helpers, guardian angels (actually, the room was packed!) and to my surprise, the strongest presence was archangel Gabriel.  When I got home I looked Gabriel up, and the message was "It's time for you to assume your leadership power and position, and lovingly guide others".  This was interesting as I found several of the assistants open to alternative medicine!

  • Meanwhile, anesthesiologist Dr. Hayward was more caring than I expected (I expected competence, which everyone had).  He put me at ease and I went into surgery happy as could be...with a little help!  Once in the surgery room, I was soon unconscious and the next thing I experienced was waking up from a heavenly dream saying "Oh, I forgot I was in surgery today". In this altered state, I saw people as energy fields for a few minutes. I noticed in particular, the anesthesiologist and a nurse, were emanating a tremendous amount of caring energy. It made me happy to know that I had been in genuinely caring hands. (In my heavenly dream, my girlfriend Adrienne and I were doing our usual thing...philosophizing and theorizing.  As thoughts are things, these ideas were manifesting as we were speaking). Adrienne and I are childhood friends from infancy, our fathers did research together at Lehigh University, and our mothers taught together in the Palisades school district.

  • Returning from the recovery room, Lars, Dar, Mom & Dad met me in the hallway before I even got to my resting room, what a treat!  Kisses, laughter, a bit of food, we were all feeling better being together again (although Mom was concerned about how pale I looked).

  • The doctor pulled out 5 lymph glands because 3 were swollen and blocked, so he wanted to check them.  None had cancer - yea!

  • On home, rest, sleep...

  • The 1st day home I rested, watched "50th Anniversary of I Love Lucy" and laughed, sat outside to take in sunshine and nature, and noticed something unique.  The evening before surgery there were specific uniform shapes in the clouds like VVVV, as if to say everything is going as planned and is synchronized.  The evening after, I saw a double rainbow, something I've never seen before.  Wow, what a special message for me!!

  • Your prayers, healing and good intentions worked!!!  I got it ALL!!!
Today, Mothers Day, I got my wish. I was able to join my whole family (all 10) for Mothers Day brunch - happy Mama! Sat outside with my mother and daughter, then came home and watched more funny shows.
My friend Sherry made a schedule for people to fill out to come over and help me this week.  I'm so grateful to you Sherry, and every one who is helping out!!
More soon.